My ideal partner is someone who can be my best friend...

Looked again and read her profile... My ideal partner is someone who can be my best friend!

She was my best friend, my best friend lover, partner, soulmate and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her... I miss her so much. We would talks for hours each day, constant texts and email, all so romantic... does she not miss this?

Why does she not miss this... christ,we spoke and chatted so much.. for eighteen months... how can this be forgotten so easily.. how can she move on so quickly. I could of understood a break, even splitting up (to a degree), but to start again as though I never existed hurts so much. There's a void in my life and a huge whole in my heart, I physically feel pain and don't want to continue. Why do I fell so bad, why does it hurt so much, I never thought I could feel pain like this. I know I have my kids and they are fabulous, but she made me alive, inspired me... I guess just not enough to get off my lazy fat arse and do something about my life. I'm trying to do it now... just too too late. What a prat!!!