Kids have gone to bed and I am all alone...so very alone, I can't stop thinking about her, so beautiful so soft... can't stop crying... no wonder she saw me as needy. This would be the time of day we would call each other. hours on the phone, most days... such fun and smiles, never ending debate and repartee, followed by text, so loving and kind. I ache for her voice to tell me she loves me... still wishing hoping and praying that maybe, just maybe, she will come to her senses and phone. Every-time I get a text or email I am so desperate for it to be from her and feel so gutted when I realise it not going to happen. Why can't she just accept love... people go their whole lives never finding it and we had it .... why can't this be enough... just someone to share life's ups and downs, to rely upon, care for and cuddle. I so wanted her for my wife... even looked at rings... beautiful art deco diamond and rubies, she would looked so good wearing it. I can't help wondering what she told her children, how can you justify moving ob so quickly, especially being muslim... she shouldn't even be with a christian... so much for God and the Koran... yet she's still on the dating site, supposedly she said supported by her family. Why the fuck doesn't this muslim family tell her the lack of morality involved and what loyalty means.
Someone somewhere tell her what a huge mistake she is making.. no one could ever possibly love her more.. WHY ISN'T LOVE ENOUGH WHY WHY WHY????
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