Throughout my life I have kissed lots of women, but her lips were by far the sweetest, softest and most beautiful... they instantly turn me on and I could have kissed them all night long. I can't believe I will never have them next to mine again...how will I ever be able to face anyone else ...it took a lifetime to find them and I really don't want anything less. I would prefer never to kiss anyone again that have anything less.
Is there such a thing a s a perfect kiss... I thought I had found it. So soft and gentle and tasted so good... even in my most positive of moments (they are few lol), I know realistically the chances of ever being able to either have them or find anyone like this are so remote. I know perhaps one day there might be someone else... but never with a kiss and lips like those.
I am now in tears mourning never to touch them again... the pain and remorse is unbearable. What I would give for just a few more... I remember even out last parting kiss at the station.... it was bliss... never did I realise it would be our last....I can't bear the idea that it is out last...I know I need to move on, but it was the best I have ever had, the best I will ever have. It should have been longer, I should have never let her go... instead I behaved like an idiot, out of control and pushed her away, so out of control, so stupid, just stupid pride and self pity. These will never happen again... but too late... I have lost my soulmate, my best friend, my companion, the love of my life...the only woman I have ever wanted to marry, I married my wife, but she asked me, and there was love there but not like this.
Am I deluding myself, I seem to have no sense of reality and what my feelings are. I know my love is real and the pain is so very real, but the rest, I just don't know anymore but just can't stop thinking about...those lips!
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