Today I have been on my diet for 5 weeks and i have changed - I have lost over 2 and a half stone - that's thirty pounds - six large bags of sugar (see below - try picking up six bags and see how much that is!) and feel so much better. I still have a long way to go, as now this change needs to be permanent, sustained and improved upon.
My sadness is there as there is no one to share this with...but again this is change and have started to get on with accepting this situation and accept that this, for now, is a change I have to go through.
I still wish things had been different, but I also accept I can't make someone love me, no matter how much I loved them and hope that one day that may change. I just need to get on with things, the irony now is I have a plan and am working to implement it. It's not easy and I keep meeting obstacles on a daily basis, but now don't find them insurmountable and strive for different solutions for those problems.
The happiness thing I am still working on and still feel a deep sadness, but this too will pass and change will happen. I wish I could understand why this happened, but again have to accept that I probably will never know.
I will always love you... my soulmate... bye sweetie x o x
One day my dream will come...
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