Am I obsessed? Wanting to talk or contact her is always on my mind, I could easily turn into the stalker she accused me of being. But what if she actually wanted me to call, what if she was too proud to call me. Obsessive and delusional? Probably.
Have been thinking of emailing her sister to say I am here waiting, her sister seemed kind and loving, but I don't want to appear desperate. I AM DESPERATE! A dilema I don't want to move on, yet all advice tells me to do so. I can't stop loving her, but is this just going to destroy my life. I find little joy in my life, my kids are fabulous, funny and do give me joy, but on a different level. Should I accept this is all I will ever have now... accept the things you cant change, change the things you can and have the wisdom to know the difference. I guess I am just not wise!
It's this time of night I so miss her texts and chats, all for someone else now... what can I do...need the counselling to kick I think and maybe drugs too... miss her voice so very much... it brightened every day... joyful, soulful, beautiful... where are you!
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